Regardless of this private little war of mine, tonight I dashed off a poem and have uploaded it to Google Docs (click here). This piece offers glimpses into the recovery period of its narrator following a loss. Just what the nature of the loss is isn't entirely clear; perhaps a divorce, perhaps death itself. I don't know that it matters. The point is, someone who used to be there isn't there anymore. I think when most of us reflect on such periods in our lives, we only have impressions of ourselves during that time; this is why I felt a poem was the most appropriate format for these scattered images of the narrator.
I suspect this will be a piece I revisit later and revise. I'm not terribly in love with it, and yet it pretty much says everything I intended it to say. That means there must be a better way of saying what I've tried to say, and I shall certainly explore those options as they are revealed to me. (Of course, if you happen to see such an opportunity for improvement, I welcome you to share it with me!)
I've had some thoughts for other pieces I'd like to write next. I can't help but feel that I should try to depict an anxiety attack or a Crohn's flare. After all, I have plenty of firsthand experience with each and I think there is potential for such a piece to have resonance and significance for readers who share those experiences. It is oddly comforting to recognize our own misery in someone else, and I should very much like to provide that comfort, should my aptitude overcome the restraints of my talent and allow me to do so.
I have also thought of writing down at least a few of my own autobiographical anecdotes. Perhaps as a sort of exercise in narcissism, perhaps seeking a catharsis; I suppose it's really more for someone else to evaluate. Regardless, my reading of non-fiction works these last few years has made me mindful of the fact that should I depart this world today, few of the stories I can tell would likely survive me. Whether those stories have any significance to anyone but me, I cannot say--I can only record them, and let future audiences decide for themselves what, if any, meaning they wish to ascribe them.